Monday, October 1, 2012

Day 2 of Being the Person-The Person I Used to Be

I struggled a bit starting this post.  I didn’t want this to be a negative post about who I used to be.

I think the word “unaware” is the best description.

I was unaware of how my thoughts and actions were impacting who I wanted to be and where I wanted to be.

Instead of being grateful for the blessings in my life, I would complain about the lack of.  How things never seemed to work out.  Folks, it wasn’t that bad.  My perception of life was skewed.

Many years ago, I started following a few blogs and got excited about the idea of starting one of my own.  I’m so glad that I didn’t start one at that time.  I’m sure that blog would have been sarcastic and snarky, complaining about my life and those around me, full of negativity.

I was talking to a friend a couple of weeks ago about how fast negativity spreads.  Have you noticed that?  Someone gets on a tangent complaining about their day and suddenly everyone else has something negative to contribute. 

I wish it was that easy to spread kindness or compassion.  Maybe it is.  It should be.

When I think back on that person, I think of all the time wasted.  All of the time I spent complaining and moping, I could have been living a life.  There is regret.

People would try to encourage me, to keep me going, to help me change my perspective.  It never seemed to stick. 

I wasn’t ready to change.


The change didn’t happen overnight.  And shadows of my former self still exist.

I can only move forward.  I can only appreciate the life I have right now.  I can be grateful that my perception changed.


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  1. One afternoon my husband and I were going over our day with the lists of what went wrong, made us anxious or upset or frustrated. One started, the other kicked in and then I started to laugh.

    "Gee, this feels like a competition of who had the worst day! I don't know what the prize is, but there's something seriously wrong that we are both looking for a 'win' here."

    It seems common that there's something embarrassing in being pleased or even content in one's life. Isn't that ODD?

    1. "It seems common that there's something embarrassing in being pleased or even content in one's life. Isn't that ODD?"

      I completely agree-it is odd!! We should be making lists of what is going well, what we are thankful for. And we should be encouraging those conversations with others.

      Sometimes at the end of the day, I choose silence over the negativity. The negative seems even more powerful when given a voice.


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