It has made me think about how I fill the moments in my life. Not the big moments, but the small moments.
How often do I have a minute to sit down, and I check my phone or the computer? Too many.
My mind can’t rest.
I’ve noticed that one of those places where my thoughts really come together is in the car. I should specify that this is when I’m driving alone.
On my way to work today, I was listening to some good music on the radio. My mind started to wonder. Wonder about things I haven’t had time to think about. My brain needed quiet to process the life around me.
It reminded me of a time years ago when I was making a lot of long drives by myself. Spending 10 hours in the car by yourself, without cruise control and only a radio, is a great way to have some quiet time for your brain.
Without this quiet time for my brain, without time to daydream, I feel unfocused. I feel that I keep going from one thing to the next but I start to lose focus. Sometimes I get so caught up in the to-dos that I forget about my larger goals. Real goals, not to-dos about emptying the dishwasher or putting away the laundry. Real goals about being the person I want to be.
Some nights I intend on reading after I’ve climbed into bed. Instead, I might find myself staring blankly at the wall for a while. Billy must think I’m crazy when he walks in. “Do you want me to turn out the light?” he asks. “No, I’m awake,” I answer. There’s something really soothing about letting your mind be completely empty, letting it wonder to a new thought. I haven’t been doing this enough lately.
So tonight after the girls are asleep, I may spend some time staring at the wall. My brain will thank me in the morning.
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