I was at a baby shower yesterday. And it was delightful.Yet I could feel the sadness creeping in.
Maybe I’m tired, I thought. I did get up at 5:30 am to finish making the gift, after all. That’s what happens until you wait until the last minute.It was something else.
There were a lot of women there my age. Lovely women. And some were there with their moms. Or they were talking about their moms.And I left feeling sad.
Nothing that could have been helped.It simply is.
My mom isn’t here anymore. And I won’t have those moments where we go places together. And playfully tease each other. And laugh at our inside jokes.I miss her every day but moments like this cut deep. Moments when reality seeps in. And not just the immediate reality of her passing, but the long-term reality of the fact that she is really gone.
I’m not sure how to take this feeling, other than to feel it. I know that it will pass, like so many of these moments do.I know that it will come back again. And probably cut just as deep.
I know that my life won’t be defined by these moments.
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