Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Day 9-Drifting


This hasn’t been the most consistent week for sleep.  Yesterday I mentioned the insomnia.
Last night, Katy woke me up simply to hug me when she got up for her potty break at 2 am.

Be there at our sleeping
When I wake up in the night like that, I can’t rush right back to sleep.  When my brain doesn’t turn on to a to-do list, sometimes it listlessly wonders.

I think about all of the overnight shifts that I worked.  While at work, I would have loved to have been in my own bed in the middle of the night, even if I was wide awake.  I think about those overnight workers and wish them well.
I think about the many nights when I was awake with children.  Not the brief pre-potty hug I get these days.  But the days when I was up feeding babies, changing diapers, helping a fever go down.  I think about all those parents and wish them well.

I think about the many nights that I was awake with worry.  Sometimes awake both at work and with worry.  Prayers in the night seem so frantic.  I think of all of those with desperate prayers and wish them well.

I am grateful because that is not me right now, except for the parent piece.  I am grateful because I know how quickly life can change.  How quickly a drifting thought before sleep one night can turn into a desperate prayer the next.
 
This post is part of the 31 Day series-Mindful Moments.
 

4 comments:

  1. Hello again! This is a great way to use a moment of insomnia mindfully. I will remember this the next time I feel anxious when attempting to sleep (and other times!) I appreciate your work here... and your time in the middle of the night, loving others who have no idea you are out there, thinking of them!

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  2. Love this! I used to be SO anxious when I couldn't fall back to sleep. This is such a sweet way to use that time.

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  3. Well, you know how it goes-sometimes focusing positive energy on someone else can help us forget how small our own problems are. Moments of insomnia seem like such a small thing when put into comparison. :)

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