I like to read other blogs. I like to find inspiration in others. The other day I read this nugget from Emily Freeman:
How many times do I wake up in the morning, afraid of the day? Wishing away a certain situation that I have to deal with? Worried about the outcome? Already thinking about being home from work and I haven’t even gotten out of bed?
Too many to count.
I know if I ask for grace, I will receive it.
But doubt lingers.
I have referenced before how, at times, I have become paralyzed by fear. After reading the sentence above, I realized that sometimes fear makes me run.
Instead of having faith, I worry. I overanalyze. I have a background chatter in my mind that twists thoughts. The positive becomes the negative. A strength becomes a weakness. I run with the negative. I run away from the day.
This is one of those situations where I need to remember the bits of wisdom I impart on others.
There is no perfect day. There is no right way. Every day I will face situations that I would rather avoid. Every day I will make mistakes. Every day I will ask for grace.
And knowing that, can I finally stop running? Let’s be realistic, probably not. Then again, the quote is: “Let the day be the day without trying to run away from it.”
So what will I do?
I will wake up thankful to be alive.
I will be thankful to wake up to a loving family.
I will be thankful for a job to go to.
I will be thankful for a job that provides an opportunity to help others.
I will ask for grace.
I will try to stay in place and let the day simply be.
That’s a start.