Friday, September 12, 2014


This year has been full of ups and downs.
Billy and I planned out our move.  So excited and full of hope.  Only to be schooled on the reality of the housing market. 

And in the midst of that frustration was the news that my mom had cancer.
So when we finally found our dream home, there was a shadow. 

I was happy…but not all the way.
And then my mom passed away.  And the last month has been full of heartache.

I think about those years in survival mode.  Maybe struggling through those times was in a way easier than this.
There has been one constant.  Billy.

I keep thinking about these song lyrics lately:

This weight’s too much alone
Some days I can't hold it at all
You take it on for me

Because some days, I just can’t. 
He talks me down.  He takes care of me.

And when I need him to just be there, he is.
I know that we are only at the tip of a very long journey to finding a new “normal.”

I’m so grateful that he’s by my side.


  1. I loved reading this. :) I'm grateful for my constant too.


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